About Me

If you find yourself reading this page, then something deep within has called to you.　This is a shared story of awakening: the resonant vibration and frequency for deep inner knowing.

I am a fully awakened, integrated conscious and clairsentient empath, with high intuition and deep sensitivity. (Yes, I know that this could be a bit much: being an awakened conscious and clairsentient empath, with high intuition.　 However, there are　many moments within my days, where the intensity of feeling and emotional shifting is batting 1000 in hypersensitivity.　 So, I use the above words to convey and share that there may be many others out there, also noticing the intensity of their own inner life calling to them, in the basics of their everyday and not so normal life.) 　

In terms of the ascension process, it seems that I am imprinted with the flavoring of Starseed, adult indigo, the divine feminine, the blue ray and memories of the Pleiadies and Lemuria.  In terms of basic practical and logical terms, I am a clairsentient empath, with hyper and ultra empathic sensitivity and deep intuition.　

When my awakening began in 1984, I had no clue about the ascension process or the evolution of consciousness. When I say my awakening begin in 1984, prior to this awakening, I remember feeling life in such a way and not understanding why I felt things the way that I did and why others around me, especially my friends,  were not feeling it the same way. 

My awakening to the ascension process and healing timelines began right away.  Although I had been teaching psychic/intuitive development and the Tarot on the heels of the New Age, back in the mid to late 80s, I remember an under lying pressure existing deep within me and not too far under the surface.  As this pressure continued to build and I tried with all of my Aries might, to live my life “my way”, my empathic sensitivity and deep intuition  was not having it, much less allowing anything else to take place, that was not a part of my awakening soul blueprint and its communications, coming to me in deep feeling communication.

Back tracking a bit…

At 25, I found myself guided and called to working with a traditional counselor; to bring healing, awareness and understanding to the traumas and pain of my childhood.　Because I was already a sensitive, with intuition, the next obvious step for me was to learn about my intuitive abilities.　From the beginning of this journey, I was guided to read book after book and take as many classes as I could afford.  Not only did I find  that my intuition was coming online faster than I could imagine or even keep up with, but I also found that as I was reading or taking each class, I began to subconsciously form how I would be “teaching” my own classes…all of this would take place in my imagination ~ or so I thought!

And…the time to teach began… 

I was immediately guided to teach psychic/intuitive development and soon, the Tarot.　This part of my life took off fast.　I found myself freelancing my teachings and reading at any and all psychic fairs.　I would do this consistently for the next 6 years.

Although at this point, my first marriage was ending on a positive and mutual note, I began noticing my life breaking down in other areas.　I began noticing lots of negatives; that were coming in the form of challenges and obstacles.　Needless to say, I was very freaked out by this.　I began transitioning from one state of consciousness to another, with no guidebook or known road to take, (except the 6 years of teaching psychic/intuitive development, the Tarot and offering consultations for others.) 

The many years of pressure that was building and always not so far under the surface, began to show itself to my life, in the many, many forms of challenges and obstacles that would come.  I had no one I could go to…it seemed that my friends and I were in a very different part of our lives and journey and I was definitely no longer in the New Age; where everything was simple and fun and manifesting our desires and creating our realities was the name of the game and the theme song, during that time.

I was flying by the seat of my pants.  I was panicked beyond reason.  The fear of my life breaking down was front and center.  I found myself hopping from one place to another, and essentially found myself living with almost every one of the people that had been my students, dragging my little daughter along for the ride.  Not too soon after, my partner/now my husband became part of this journey.

The questions, the fear and the intense bouts of panic and depression had me questioning my sanity, through every step of this insane journey.  For the many who knew me…prior to this major life change, I was organized, focused and kept and wanted my life, lived in a very orderly fashion.  We questioned whether or not we should have my mother raise our daughter for awhile, until we had a better understanding as to what was happening and going on and if I/we did indeed loose our minds.  I was loosing my identity and my hold on what was once the “normalcy” of my life.  I was in the ascension part of the process…and there was no information or anyone I could talk to about what was happening, and never mind talk to someone, anyone…I had no context of understanding, so it was near impossible to put this to words…what was happening was definitely not matching “manifesting our desires, and creating our reality”…as I was constantly being told to “just do it and snap out of it or put it away for awhile.  And tucking it away or putting it away was not happening for me. 

How do you put something away in the farthest part of your mind, when it is calling for attention all the time??  I began backtracking my thoughts to my past and realized that I was never one to have a problem snapping out of a mood or moving forward ~ something much deeper was calling to me and I had to literally “suck it up” and roll with the punches and ride the wild surf!!

I/We had just entered the Dark Night of Our Soul. I was emotionally and psychologically devastated beyond my wildest imaginings.  And through this very bizarre turn of events, that once was my life, the constant always playing in the back of my mind and my underlying feeling, was that I had very strong intuition and that sooner or later, whatever this was, would eventually make itself known to me  and so for the next twenty some odd years, I found us hopping from place to place; gathering, learning how to communicate a language that I had no understanding or clue about and learning, always learning about my feelings and emotions, learning to read patterns and imprinting… and how to navigate and utilize a tremendous amount of intuition, to a life and a landscape that had no logical sense or known roadmap…we were definitely on a road that had not been traveled before.  We were in the trenches, digging, carving and creating a new reality, through healed thoughts, feelings and emotions;  essentially recreating our lives, according to our deeper inner and  soul blueprinted guidance…yes, I know that now, however…I had no clue to the beginning of this unfolding journey.　

As my life continued to break down, a dear friend, who had been a part of my class, offered me a place to live, along with child care for my two year old daughter,  in the hopes that I would be able to get my life pulled back together, I took her up on this offer, at least a place to live…after all, we both knew that God had brought her into my life and how wrong could things go, knowing that God or a deeper understanding to life, was part of this package.  As time marched on, I found myself falling deeper into this bottomless “rabbit hole”.  To my human eyes, things were definitely not getting better, they appeared to be getting worse…and yet, my gut, kept telling me that something else was going on and I had no choice but to go where this was taking me ~ deeper within and the deeper I was pulled to my “inner life”, the more that my friendship(s) and relationship(s) were breaking down and changing.  All I could think was if  “this was Gods’ plan, then something about this was not working right.

And so with no understanding, when guided or intuitively urged, I continued seeking out the appropriate classes that would hopefully guide me to some kind of understanding or context for what was happening.  Armed with more information and ways to heal, I was falling at a rate of warp speed, and had more questions then I knew what to do with and still no understanding and answers.

It would be during this time that I was introduced to Channeling, Body Harmony, Loving Relationships Training, Rebirthing, Soul Retrieval, and basic NLP. For awhile, although I still　had no　logical understanding as to what was happening to my life, I would find relief in the healing modalities that　would become a part of my　journey.

During this time, I also began journaling and  working with the Alleister Crowley Tarot to figure out what was happening to my life:　to utilize deeper intuition, for the deeper meaning and purpose to my experiences.　Little did I know, that I was about to commit to deeper emotional knowing and healing: the remembering of applying new healing modalities through logical and mental focus.　I was being called to follow my inner light: my deeper inner knowing...and would soon discover that not only did I have more than one level of sensitivity and intuition, but that one size definitely did not fit all when dealing with levels of sensitivity or empathic abilities.

Being so extremely sensitive about life and the profound affects that this would have on me, nothing could have prepared me for what was to come…and so once again,  and a couple of years later, my friend offered me another opportunity to work for her in her office;  setting appointments, answering the phone, all things that would help to keep her office running…to my human part, this was a chance and an opportunity to get safe, generate a cash flow and also begin to do my classes again…as there was room to do this in her office and once again, although this opportunity was perfect, within the human realms and normalcy of life, on a soul level, this was not an energetic match…not because either of us was doing anything wrong, but because I was being called and guided to focus on the breakdown of my life; to rebuild and recreate a new foundation…totally and completely from an energetic understanding and  journey.

And now, I really did  feel like I lost my mind…my friendship was really breaking down and taking a major energetic and emotional beating  and I had no understanding how to fix it, especially with this new energy, that I now know as the ascension process and ascension awakening.

As I look back on the last 27 years and the road that my life, my path and my journey would take, I realize I was soul contracted, blueprinted and encoded from the beginning of my human life journey.　My life journey, took me onto the path of resonances, frequencies and vibrations; guided by deeper intuitive knowing.  I would discover through this awakening that I was carrying the energies of lightbearer, wayshower, polarity healing of our emotional past and timelines.

What I share in this awakening story, my articles and consultations, is through deep and direct life experience, along with deep inner soul guided knowing.　Although in the sharing is the most practical, for I was taught, guided and instructed through focus and commitment, step by step in the process: the frequency and vibration of what is shared goes deep; back to soul core.

So, it is my hope, that if you find your life changing…drastically and your emotional buttons are provoked into awakening, that your journey has begun and that there are many of us out there now, in tune to this new life journey.　This journey: your journey is one of awakening, crossroads and transitions into expanded states of consciousness and it means that your everyday life is about to heal and come into balance with your soul guided blueprint: not to predict futures or outcomes, but to find the path that is in alignment with your journey and your life.

For many, this journey will look like you are living a duality and polarity experience.  However, within the dualities and polarities of your life journey, if feeling safe enough to feel, the polarities of life changes, will teach and guide you intuitively into greater understanding.  Most often, the most difficult and challenging experiences; whether through difficulties in a job, relationship, residence, or finances, these too contain the most inner wisdom and soul guided knowing, for the next phase of your life and your journey. Yes, these will push your buttons and will create a pressure of emotions and feelings and yet, this is the key to greater and deeper understanding. 

Yes, there are many modalities to teach, assist and guide you on your journey, however, in the end; all of our answers come from within our soul blueprinted knowing.

For this state of awakening, there are no shortcuts, bypasses or quick fixes.　Our everyday normal life and our emotions are about to realign to deeper knowing.

As this is an ongoing journey, it is my intention and purpose to act as a bridge and a guide, in bringing understanding and awareness, to the patterns, imprinting and emotional timelines of our past, so that each now and present moment, is lived from heart centered and soul guided awareness. 

And remember…

One size does not fit all.  Each of us has our own unique and individual journey and path to live and this journey unfolds according the appropriate timing deep within you.  I share what appeared to be difficulties in my life, so that others that begin to notice challenges coming will understand that there is much more going on then meets the normal eye to see.  Our lives are accelerating and we are beginning to evolve to a deeper level of understanding.